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For someone that suffers from hypersomnia, I am unused to not being able to fall asleep. I am not sure what is different about today. I have an exam tomorrow, but I have had many of them before, and I haven't had problems like this.

 

So what has changed? Everything, I think.

 

I don't think I have ever really cared if I finished uni or not, or even when I finish uni. But suddenly I want uni to be over with. There are so many things that I want to get on with my life now, and uni is holding me back. I could always quit uni, get a 9-5 retail job and do things that way, but since I hate my job, I don't really want to keep doing that. Hating my job every day will just put me back where I was three years ago, and I dont want that.

 

So tomorrow I am going to have my exam, I am not really ready for it. Either they will ask the questions that I know the answer to and I pass, or they will ask all of the wrong ones and I will fail terribly. I am not too concerned either way. One subject has little baring on a 4.5 year uni degree.

 

So why am I wide awake at 2.30am, like I have just woken from a full nights sleep? I have no idea. But I am going to go and have a cuppa while I ponder it some more. I hope everyone else is having a good nights sleep.

I have no idea what I would do with my days if I didn't have my torrent tv. Not that I don't do other things as well, but I really need my tv shows to break up my day, distress.

 

So here is a quick round up of the new season of torrents. I'll start with the classics.

 

Heroes is a terrible disappointment. One of the best shows of 2006 it has to be one of the biggest let downs of recent tv. The show has completely lost what was great about it. Its like a cross between Mutant X and a bad teenage sit com. And the biggest concern is that it doesn't even seem to be setting up for anything that can be good in the future. Its not as though things will get better in the foreseeable future. Unless they suddenly start killing off the main characters. Then things could start looking up.

 

Californication is by no means brand new, but I watched a few episodes and I found out that the show was a little more than sex and breasts. Unfortunately the story doesn't do enough to drive the show by itself. I would like to have seen a lot more of the blog entries that he should be writing. At least they had substance. It reminds me a lot of Entourage, which opened really strongly, but seems to be more-of-the-same for the most part now. Unfortunately that seems to be the theme of this tv.

 

Which brings me to Grey's Anatomy. While I can appreciate the writing and I can't find fault, season 4 is just same of the more. Which is sad. They really need a shake up. Any episode now I am expecting some sort of disaster, just like they have in previous seasons. It just seems to be getting predictable.

 

Unlike House, which seems to be really refreshing the show. Its been keeping things interesting, which is a huge improvement on last season. I had hoped for some revamp of the show, but it has far out done my expectations.

 

Dexter has kept a good line from last season. It really pulled me in with its approach to the show, but even the novelty has worn off it still holds its own.

 

Pushing up Daisies is an interesting concept, but it failed to sell me. I don’t think I’ll bother with episode two unless I run out of things to watch.

 

Chuck and Bionic woman are pleasant editions to this seasons viewings. Bionic women is a little more geeky, with more accurate science information. Chuck is terrible with its facts and suffers from appalling storylines, but someone I have come to love it for its unusual and deep characters.

 

Not a bad new round of television, but no new ground breaking material. A couple of my favorites have made a successful shakeup, but the majority are just continuing on from last year.

It seems that I have finally found my uni course. I have only had 2 subjects so far, but they have both been good. I am not sure what databases will be like, but education shouldn't be much work in class. So after so many years looking for what I wanted to do, I should be happy right?

 

It seems that has gone right, but everything else isn't going as well as it should. Or well at all. There have been some days that have been less than average, including the day that I got the news that my great aunt died. I am tired, I have trouble sleeping when I want to, and am falling asleep when I really don't. I feel like I am walking around in a daze. I am walking around in a daze. If I don't figure out how to sleep well soon, uni and work are going to go really badly. Already I am having trouble thinking of things at work and my maths skills are beyond my reach, it is simply too tiring to try. And the dreans are as bad as ever. What I wouldn't give to have just one good nights sleep.

 

The sudden influx of things to do has meant that I have too much to do, and too little time to do it. There are lots of things that I am supposed to be doing at the same time, if only there were 3 of me, then things would be much easier. I am not sure that I can afford to feed 3 of me at the moment. I haven't even got a house for one of me.